dirty dirty 30

I’ve been 30 years old for a little over a week now. Nobody really talks about the emotional turmoil that comes with this new coming of age… or maybe they do and I’ve just never paid attention because for the past 5 years I’ve been 25 forever. Maybe I’m in denial, but the reality of 30 has been settling in for the past few weeks and I’m still not sure what to do with it. Perhaps that’s why I’m back here, revisiting this space that I’ve neglected for far too long (that’s another post in and of itself). So hello again fellow tall (and not so tall) friends.

Part of me expected 30 to be big. I probably set myself up when I went away last year.. 29 on October 29th in Mexico was the perfect way to celebrate my champagne birthday (I vlogged my trip: HERE). In theory, this year should have been bigger and better, no? But I think subconsciously, even though part of me felt like being over the top and extravagant for my 30th, I also didn’t want to make a big deal out of this milestone.

When I was younger, my vision of myself and my life at this age was much different than what it ACTUALLY looks like. This is a hard one to swallow. I figured that of COURSE by 30 I’ll have a solid career, a small family, a regular schedule…… of course…
So why would I want to celebrate when so many of those big “life” things are still works in progress?

….the reality of being 30 and having no direction for a solid career is what eats me up the most. Saying that out loud.. putting that on the internet.. is maybe even scarier. Whenever someone asks “So what do you do?” I have a rolodex of answers I cycle through before I decide which one is appropriate for that individual, because I figure the 30 year old waitress who sometimes models, sometimes livestreams, sometimes blogs, occasionally cosplays, sings behind closed doors, sometimes “influences” and generally just exists in a positive manner, isn’t something everyone can really get on board with. It’s also not something that is sustainable long term.

But that’s who I am at the moment. That’s what I do. AND, to top it off, I’m 30 now. *gulp*

Sighhh. Even my face seems to be reminding me that time is never on our side but I’ve decided to fight back and jump on the Botox bandwagon. I never thought I’d be the type to start putting needles into my face, but then again, I hadn’t turned 30 yet. Now I get it and I’m a complete advocate (within reason of course). Slowly reversing the 11’s that have been making their home between my eyebrows is the most magical decision I’ve ever made. I also just got my lips plumped for the 2nd time (the first time was back in March).. age has been taking it’s toll on my upper lip and I’m not about to let those lip wrinkles get too comfortable.

While most of my mood at the moment seems to be all doom and gloom, I’ve also never been happier than I currently am. Despite the fact that I’m aging. Despite the fact that I have many jobs but no career. Despite my lack of financial security. Despite the fact that my maternal clock is ticking. Despite ALL of those societal pressures that get pushed upon us every day..

I’m coming up on 5 years with the love of my life. We have an adorable home and two perfect fur babies together. I’m supported by him more than I’ve ever even dreamed in a partner, and get excited when I think about all the adventures we’ve yet to go on.
I’m surrounded by so many inspiring and loving people in my life and have been presented with so many cool opportunities because of it. I have the freedom to go and do as I please with an extremely flexible job that also gives me the freedom to put my time into other things and projects that come my way. Also, I was a bit of a late bloomer when it comes to my personal style, but as you’ve probably seen over the last few years, I think I’ve finally come into my own. The more I look at it, I feel like I’ve got all the ingredients in my life to make it into something I’ve always wanted, I was just looking at the wrong recipe..

Maybe 30 won’t be so bad.

 

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Hibernation Season

The title says it all. As soon as the cold weather hits, I turn into a hermit that only leaves the house if I absolutely have to…. sooooo basically only when I have to go to work. My social life suffers, my creativity seems to have frozen with the icicles outside my window, and my mood matches the grey wintery skies. Apparently I’ve been hibernating most of 2017…

I’m not sure where the shift happened, or if it was just the fresh start of a new year, but we’re halfway through January and I feel my hibernation lifting. I’m getting excited to create again, I’m slowly falling back into somewhat of a routine, and I’m feeling like myself again. Maybe it’s my new pink hair. Maybe it’s the new boots I got for 40% off… Or maybe it’s the new jacket I scored for only $15. Regardless. I’m loving it. Lay it on me 2018.

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***Disclaimer: I bought the red jacket before dying my hair pink.

Jacket: Forever 21, $15 (I LOVE sale racks!!! Especially when the sleeves fit!!)
Boots: Call It Spring (they’re currently offering 30% off reg. price with code 30STYLE)
Scarf: Topshop
Tshirt: Hip and Bone
Gloves: Free People (past season)
Pants: Kingpins Royale denim jeans x One Teaspoon, (a few sizes left at The Store On Queen’s Blowout Sale — I wear mine a size larger than my normal)
Hair: Manic Panic

 

 

Photos done by Jesse Lozier

More CURATD x LTS!!

You all know how much I love whenever LTS releases another CURATD capsule. If I could, I’d probably buy the entire collection. And I think I’m in love with the 70s vibes coming from this outfit. All I need to track down is a pair of high waisted, wide legged denim pants and this look would be even more perfect!

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Jacket: Western Jacket with Borg Trim, CURATD x Long Tall Sally
Blouse: Frill Detail Top, CURATD x Long Tall Sally
Hat: Missguided
Pants: Leigh skinny pants, Top Shop
Scarf: Zara (Mens)
Bag: Model Atelier
Boots: Steve Madden

 

 

Photos by Justin Robinson

 

The Power Suit

Once upon a time, I went to university for business and as I neared graduation, I pictured myself finding a job in a big city, probably in the financial district at some entry level job, until I worked my way up to a position with an impressive title. Years later, I felt like a little bit of a fraud while shooting this look downtown in the financial district. I still don’t know what I want to do when I grow up, and the only reason I wear suits like this is because I love wearing things that make me feel badass, and there’s something about a well fitted pant suit on a woman that is particularly badass.

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I’ve been wanting a pant suit for quite awhile but without getting one specifically tailored to my size, I had been yet to come across anything that would fit my height, length, and shape. Without even having to ask, Adelle, a designer from Trinidad, seemed to read my mind and answer my suit prayers! This suit by Dellez Fashion is absolutely stunning. The gentle detailing of the satin lapel is just enough to elevate the jacket from just a simple navy suit, and both pieces fit me like a dream!

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I love this suit so much, the next on my list is going to be a floral pant suit. I fell in love with them at fashion week two seasons ago, and now I’m as determined as ever to find one in my size!

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Suit: Dellez Fashion
Blouse: Urban Outfitters
Coat: CURATD x Long Tall Sally
Tiemy boyfriend’s closet
Watch: Fossil
Glasses: Forever21
Shoes: Qupid, from Marshall’s

 

 

Photos by Austin Marshall

 

I ♡ Toronto

I find one of the most common questions I get working downtown (aside from anything height related), is if I’m from here. My response, I grew up a few hours outside the city, but I’ve been living in Toronto off and on now for 7 years, and yes, I absolutely love it.

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I find it hard to imagine living anywhere else. This city always has something going on. Anything you need is generally accessible within a few blocks at any given time, and though it seems absolutely massive, Toronto is actually so small. I used to feel like just another number in the crowd, but nowadays, I can rarely go for a walk downtown without seeing someone I know. Probably part of the reason I love putting together dope outfits.. If I’m going to be seen by ANYone I know, I better look and feel amazing!

Another huge thank you to Long Tall Sally for giving me a taste of their new CURATD capsule. I’m always confident I’ll be on trend and looking well put together with the pieces they’ve been putting out. Perfect styles to be seen in 😉
My ONLY downside this time around is the fit of these gorgeous pants. I don’t know if it’s the extra leg exercises I’ve been doing lately or what, but my thighs seemed a bit too thick for the silhouette of the pant, and the waist a bit loose in comparison. They wore well while I was standing, but any extra movement (including sitting) wasn’t the most comfortable.

 

Top: Tie neck detailed blouse, CURATD x Long Tall Sally
Pants: PU Zip detail trouser, CURATD x Long Tall Sally
Hat: faux leather beret, Missguided (yes they also have a tall department, and often have sales running to make their already affordable items, even more affordable. I recently made a purchase during their “50% off orders $200+” sale. Click HERE to get $20 off your next purchase)
Shoes: Freda Salvadore

 

Photos by Austin Marshall

 

Red Carpet Ready with JJ’s House

This past weekend was Buffer Festival here in Toronto and though I wasn’t able to attend for the whole weekend, I attended the gala on Sunday night! (read about last year’s experience HERE). The dress code was formal black-tie attire so I turned to JJ’s House to hook me up for the occasion! I ordered a bridesmaid dress from them for a wedding I was in back in March (see HERE), and had SUCH a positive experience with their custom sizing, that revisiting their site was a no-brainer for me.

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the evening’s makeup look.

Ordering is simple enough and pricing is extremely reasonable! For us tall girls the ‘Custom Size’ option is an absolute godsend. Actually I’d say for women in general, this option is amazing. If you’re in between sizes, which so many women are, this feature gives you the option to get every part of the dress tailor made to your proportions, including length! Instructions on where/how to measure are included right on the page so you can’t get it wrong. There IS an additional fee for getting a dress made-to-order like this, BUT IT’S ONLY AN ADDITIONAL $20. I find this insane. You can’t even get something hemmed for that price here in the city lol..

Turn around time for both dresses I’ve gotten so far from them has also been extremely reasonable. I’m pretty sure it came in like 2-3 weeks (I should have kept track, I’m sorry). That being said, I would never recommend leaving dress shopping for an important event until last minute… Regardless, I was SO stoked that I wasn’t waiting months, nor was I breaking the bank, for a custom fit dress.

I definitely turned up the sex appeal and channeled my inner Jessica Rabbit with my dress this time around, and honestly couldn’t be more happy with the outcome! It was absolutely perfect for the event. Maybe next time I won’t just LOOK red carpet ready, I’ll actually be ON the red carpet 😉

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So far my orders from JJ’s have been 2 for 2, so you better bet I’ll find an excuse to order from them again in the future!!

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ps.. I styled my man for the night too! So excited when he’s wiling to put his style in my hands!

Dress: JJ’s House
Jacket: H&M (past season)
Necklace: TopShop (past season)
Shoes: Vince Camuto (past season)
Bag: Model Bag, Model Atelier

 

Can it be Summer forever?

As the temperatures begin to drop here in Toronto (rather early it seems as we’re only just finishing August), I can’t help but think how lovely it would be to extend my summer somewhere warmer. Fantasizing about tropical vacations has me mentally preparing a packing list, so I’ve put together just a few of my must-haves for a (late) summer getaway. While I ALWAYS over pack, there are only a few things I can’t leave without.

If I’m about to go spend time in the sun, the first thing that’s going in my bag is my Maui Babe Browning Lotion. It’s basically an accelerating tanning lotion that smells and works like a dream. I could rave on and on about it, but the website does that enough. I’m not usually super tanned, but any sort of tan I have is all thanks to this stuff. Of course after my skin is sunkissed, I need to moisturize, so the second thing in my bag is my atma Crystal Infused Whipped Moon Butter. There are SO many cool qualities to this body butter (definitely check it out), but the best part is how rich it makes your skin look. The deep moisturizing qualities give my skin a glow that I haven’t been able to find with any other moisturizer, especially on a bit of a tan! I LIVE by this moon butter.

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Another nifty travel item is my new carryall from local shop This & That Design Co. While they make pouches/bags of multiple different sizes, their smallest carry-all is perfect for ID, passport, and money/cards. Why bring your entire wallet when chances are you probably won’t need that Sephora points card on the beach anyways? 😉

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Last but not least: vacation wardrobe. First up, is swimwear. My current favourite is by a one-piece by local designer for label Hvmility, seen HERE (swimwear is unavailable online but I’m sure you could inquire with an email)! And as much as I like to think I’m packing an outfit a day, it probably usually ends up being more like two per day. That being said, ONE PIECES ARE YOUR BEST FRIEND! Whether it be dresses, rompers, or jumpsuits, these items are already a full outfit without the stress of matching tops/bottoms. Throw in a great jacket, and a nude sandal, and you’re ready to take that outfit from day to night in no time!

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There you have it. It might look like I keep things simple, but this overpacker usually has wayyyy more on her packing list. But as long as I get that sunkissed glow and I’ve got outfits that make a statement, everything else is just details. ….now to figure out where I want to go 😉

All clothing from Long Tall Sally: Romper (I’m in a size 6), Jumpsuit (I’m in a size 6), Jacket (I’m in a size 6), Heels (I’m in a US9)
Sunglasses: Hashtag #Sunglasses (use code NewShades4You to get FREE express shipping and 10% off your order)
Necklace: Durumi
Bag: Winners

 

 

Photos by Naomi Peters

 

 

Boots & Tarps 2017

One of my first loves has always been music, and every time I get to enjoy live music I’m always kicking myself for not doing so more often. Growing up listening almost exclusively to country music, I was SO excited to get to go to Boots&Hearts country music festival for the second consecutive time this past weekend (see last year HERE).

There were so many amazing artists this year, but there were two that made my entire weekend, both of which played on Saturday; The Abrams, and JJ Shiplett. I’m by no means a music blogger (lol these days I’m barely even a fashion blogger), BUT, I can not say enough about both of these performances. The Abrams had a killer fiddle that gave me exactly the kind of country music I had been craving the whole weekend, and JJ Shiplett has the kind of voice that melts my soul. His smooth and raspy vocals almost made up for the fact that I missed out on another favourite artist of mine that night at home in Toronto (James Arthur.. basically crying forever for missing out on his show).

As excited as I get for the music, I’m almost just as excited (though much more stressed) when it comes to picking out festival outfit. And just when I thought I’d had it all planned out, the weather forecast and potential for a rainy weekend made me rethink my entire fashion lineup. I decided this year to keep things relatively simple, and played up the country vibes more than I did last year (I even bought myself a cowboy hat on the Thursday night!). Outfit details below with coordinating polaroid ❤

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Day One Top: Festival Junkie bralette, Love and Light the Label from Dollskill .. Pants: crochet lace palazzo, TTYA x Long Tall Sally (2016) .. Sunglasses: Forever 21 .. Sneakers: Ardene

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Day Two
Top: Mindless Indulgence Mesh Set (with matching panty), Kiki Riki from Dollskill (fits small!!)
.. Shorts: second-hand One Teaspoon from Fashionably Yours (I wear them 2 sizes bigger than my normal)
.. Belt: O-Ring belt, from Dollskill
.. Hat: Nicol Hats International, bought at the festival
.. Boots: Diesel rainboots
(not seen: I rocked my clear rain jacket from Long Tall Sally most of the day due to rain — seen HERE)

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Day 3 Top: Side Chick Lace-Up Tee from Dollskill (worn over triangle bikini) .. Shorts: Zara .. Sunglasses: Forever 21 .. Boots: Steve Madden

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Day 4
Bodysuit: swimsuit by hvmility
.. Shorts: vintage Levi cutoffs
.. Boots: Steve Madden
.. Accessories: black handkerchief around neck and Day one sunnies

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

As I’m getting settled at home again today, I’m already going through festival withdrawal. Especially since Long Tall Sally released the PERFECT clothing capsule earlier this summer. I got creative with fellow tall babe Layna Simone and photgrapher Tudor Stanescu, while we lived out our festival vibes for a shoot a few weeks ago here in Toronto! Expect me to look this fabulous at some late summer food festivals because who said festival fashion ends with music?!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Jumpsuit and Romper: Curatd x LTS, Long Tall Sally
Layna’s boots: Long Tall Sally
My boots: Steve Madden
Hat: Asos
Sunglasses: Hashtag #Sunglasses (use code NewShades4You to get FREE express shipping and 10% off your order)
Flash Tattoos: Pure Tatts from Sumwear by TSOQ

 

 

 

High Summer, High Seas

White pants and nautical blue and white stripes = an outfit fit for the open sea! Ultimately, I think it would be best worn on a yacht, but I’ve yet to meet the friend that invites me out onto their charter. I do have tentative plans to go out sailing tomorrow though, so I’m looking forward to putting this outfit to good use!

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This is my first pair of jeans from Tallgirls, and I love the fit, though they do fit VERY slim.. that or my thighs have been growing from all my squats! I got my regular size, and could have probably fit a size up as well, but the stretch in these makes the tight pant still comfortable. The linen style striped top is so breezy and comfortable, especially in the hot sun. I’d wear it as is, or even open as a swimsuit cover, with a cute white bikini underneathe!

And a quick shout out to Hudson’s Bay for their always amazing sales.. I scored my rad metallic Marc Jacobs sneakers a couple months back off the sale rack for the price of a Converse shoe! For all my Canadian friends, keep your eyes on the sales and special events at the Bay! It’s worth it 😉

 

 

 

 

 

 

Top: Tallgirls UK
Jeans: Tallgirls UK
Sneakers: Marc Jacobs, Hudson’s Bay

 

 

Photos by Belinda Smith, Chapter 8 Photography

Summer’s a-Comin’

This past week was the kind of week I’ve needed for a long time. I took a train out of the city to go spend some time with my bestest best, Belinda; my longest and dearest friend. It’s probably been over a year since we’ve had some good quality girl time and what better way to take a break and reset, before summer kicks off.

With not much planned beyond hanging out with her beautiful 2-year-old son and catching up on all our goings on since the last time we saw each other, I was beyond stoked when she agreed to use some of our time together to get creative and shoot some awesome new summer goodies that Tall Girls UK has added to my closet.

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This evening couldn’t have been more perfect. Though summer doesn’t officially begin until later this week, the warm air, dusty fields and low sun gave me all the summer feels, and I know I’ll be wearing his dress over and over and over again all season long. It’s lightweight and relaxed makes it feel like it’s barely there!

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Dress: dropped waist dress, Tall Girls UK
Boots: Steve Madden

 

 

Photos by Belinda Smith – Chapter 8 Photography